Pulls and pushes

A million thoughts are running through my mind right now..

Am i that easily defeated?
Did i let myself actually give up?
DID i give up?
Is there anything i can do about it?

After asking myself these questions in the quietness of the night where i can hear myself thinking, i now realise that ashamed as i am to admit it, i did give up.
Since when did i become so ready to surrender?

I needed a wake-up knock in the head to actually realise that i shouldn't be giving up so soon.
I'm not going to allow myself to just let go of one of the most important things to me for the past 3 months.
To simply give up that easily would mean a victory on the devil's side- and since i have no intentions of letting him win any fight i fight against him, i'm going to continue to push on.
No matter what comes up, i know that in the end everything will be fine. :)

However messy they may be, when the time comes, i'm sure everything will be fine.
And even if it's not going according to how i've planned, i'm going to do my best and surrender the rest to Him. (;

Okay. Thoughts and feelings gushed out.
Time to get back to biology. :(


I'm really hungry. =/

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Oh yeah. I've taken off my cast! =)

Pics are in my dad's phone. Camera's batteries were dead..sigh.

Heh.

I can walk...or limp, actually.

I've gotta do my exercises waaaay more frequently. :D

Taaaa.