Musical frustrations

Every. Single. Time.

:/

Every single time I talk to a certain musician friend of mine, I have this urge to want to pursue music professionally.

If you know me, you'd know that as of March 2011, I have decided to become a doctor.

Well, the decision wasn't an easy one.

There was a lot of uncertainty behind that decision.

Okay, correction. There IS still a lot of uncertainty behind that decision. :(

There are times when I listen to a few songs or view a musicians profile on facebook and i'm like 

"Aww man, I wish I could do that as a living".

Sigh.

With all my time spent in college and doing assignments and studying, i had to drop my main instrument, the piano.

It'll be great if I could play the guitar or some other instrument to fill up that musical void, but unfortunately, all i can do is sing. :/

I love singing, don't get me wrong. I reaaally love singing.

But there's this thing about actual instruments. It's different.

You can play out the melodies and harmonies that your voice can't do all at once.

Unless you have a recording studio at home PLEASE TAKE ME THERE!!!, you can't do that.

Anyway, because of that, I hardly ever touch the piano now, and I'm getting rusty.

My choice of chords is ugly and I think even my timing is running now. NOOOOO. :(

Seeing everyone chasing their dreams, starting in ICOM, then going to Berklee.

And even a high possibility of breaking into the music industry and becoming a world touring musician..

Even all the New Breed Auditions.

Gahh. I wish i could be part of something like that. :/

But as usual, after a few hours..

I still think that music isn't my calling.

It doesn't feel right. I may absolutely love it, but I think that maybe... I'd be a better doctor.

Yeah right.

:(

Sigh, let's just wait for the few hours to pass and then life goes on.